Why do teachers all have to give tests at the same time? I have 3 tests this week alone! Gah, and they're all my first tests for these classes, so I'm already nervous enough. On top of things, I don't like one of my classes, abnormal psychology. It's not really my favorite subject; I would much rather be taking another social psych or neuroscience class instead.
Besides stress, I am quite excited about my research proposal topic this semester. The topic I chose is relatively new to the world of psychology, and I've talked about it before. It's called self-compassion. I'm not exactly sure what my proposal will be or what my research project will be, but I know it will have something to do with self-compassion and perhaps aggression or self-esteem.
Last thing for this post... I decided to write a missionary yesterday. I haven't sent my letter yet because I'm not sure if I have written all I want to say. I'm also kinda nervous about writing him. I mean, we were friends in school, but I never asked to write so I have to ask his bishop what the address is that I'd write to. Hopefully he enjoys the letter and doesn't think I'm weird or something like that. I actually don't know if anyone knows who I'm talking about here. Oh well...
Well, that is all for tonight. Until next time...
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Monday, January 31, 2011
Friday, January 14, 2011
A Not-So Urgent Life Update
Happy belated new years! I have decided to do the generic thing and reminisce about last year. Basically, 2010 was a good year for me. I graduated from high school and college both with high honors, had a few culture shocks, got a 4.0 in college (both semesters!), made lots of new friends, learned to accept myself, and got through some really difficult situations. And, through all of the stress, I'm still here. Now I'm hoping 2011 is going to be even better than 2010.
That's all I want to say about new years. Now to important stuff, school. Everyone knows I am a hardcore student. I dedicate my life to education, studying, and doing the best I possibly can in areas that interest me, mainly psychology. I have new classes this semester that I'm stoked about, especially my fun classes since I've never had a fun easy class before. It should be a good semester.
So far, it has started out a good semester. I went to a 70-80's disco dance tonight and had a blast! By far one of the best dances I've ever been to in my entire life. Though, there was one part that I wasn't too pleased with. There was a guy that kept stalking me and my friends, or at least that's what it seemed. There was this one song that came on that was sorta a dirty dancing song and he kept lifting up his shirt and moving closer and I was creeped out. No more details, let's just say it was gross and he was disgusting. But other than that one time, the rest of the dance was a lot of fun.
I can't think of much else that has been happening that I wish to share on here. So, until next time...
That's all I want to say about new years. Now to important stuff, school. Everyone knows I am a hardcore student. I dedicate my life to education, studying, and doing the best I possibly can in areas that interest me, mainly psychology. I have new classes this semester that I'm stoked about, especially my fun classes since I've never had a fun easy class before. It should be a good semester.
So far, it has started out a good semester. I went to a 70-80's disco dance tonight and had a blast! By far one of the best dances I've ever been to in my entire life. Though, there was one part that I wasn't too pleased with. There was a guy that kept stalking me and my friends, or at least that's what it seemed. There was this one song that came on that was sorta a dirty dancing song and he kept lifting up his shirt and moving closer and I was creeped out. No more details, let's just say it was gross and he was disgusting. But other than that one time, the rest of the dance was a lot of fun.
I can't think of much else that has been happening that I wish to share on here. So, until next time...
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
My Not So Secret Obsession
As I was writing this blog, I realized I may be a little obsessed with school and psychology... bear with me, or don't... either way, it doesn't matter much to me. Writing is a good way to study for tests (in case you were wondering).
Wow. I am really loving my classes. Recently, I wrote a paper for behavioral neuroscience about the effects of meditation on the chemistry and neuronal connections within the brain. It was a pretty epic paper, if I do say so myself. It's too long to post though, and besides, I doubt anyone else would find meditative effects as interesting as I find them. Basic point: meditation changes the chemical release of cortisol, reduces stress, improves the immune system, and activates regions of the brain that are directly tied to the attention networks and pathways, etc., etc., etc. Yes, I'm awesome, I know. Maybe sarcastic fits better...
Social psychology is by far my favorite class though. We're learning about cognitive dissonance theory right now, and it makes complete sense. The jist of the theory is that when people do something contrary to their beliefs, they feel psychological tension (otherwise known as dissonance). This, in turn, causes the person to reflect on their "self" to either change the behavior, attitude about the behavior, or rationalize the behavior. It's amazing what we can tell ourselves to feel better about doing something contrary to our beliefs. We lie to ourselves quite often, I've realized. And we usually don't even realize it! It's a coping mechanism, and it does wonders to our mind and how we think about life and others.
Everyone has cognitive dissonance at some point in their life. I was thinking of putting examples up, but I'll pass on that. I'm sure you can think of them yourself... if you really even care... In fact, if you read this far, I'm shocked.
You should take social psychology; especially if you want to learn a ton about yourself - why you think how you think, why you do what you do, to find your true self. There are plenty of other ways to learn about oneself, but this class has shown me so many different techniques and theories that I am starting to put everything together.
Psychology in general is just a bunch of theories bundled together to make sense of human behavior. I love it! I know of no other person who gets as excited about class as do I. Kinda scary actually...
Anyways, that is about all I wish to share. Live life to the fullest, laugh as if there's no tomorrow, and love like there's no end. Well, there is an end (sort of), but don't worry about it.
The End <-- (see, here it is.)
Wow. I am really loving my classes. Recently, I wrote a paper for behavioral neuroscience about the effects of meditation on the chemistry and neuronal connections within the brain. It was a pretty epic paper, if I do say so myself. It's too long to post though, and besides, I doubt anyone else would find meditative effects as interesting as I find them. Basic point: meditation changes the chemical release of cortisol, reduces stress, improves the immune system, and activates regions of the brain that are directly tied to the attention networks and pathways, etc., etc., etc. Yes, I'm awesome, I know. Maybe sarcastic fits better...
Social psychology is by far my favorite class though. We're learning about cognitive dissonance theory right now, and it makes complete sense. The jist of the theory is that when people do something contrary to their beliefs, they feel psychological tension (otherwise known as dissonance). This, in turn, causes the person to reflect on their "self" to either change the behavior, attitude about the behavior, or rationalize the behavior. It's amazing what we can tell ourselves to feel better about doing something contrary to our beliefs. We lie to ourselves quite often, I've realized. And we usually don't even realize it! It's a coping mechanism, and it does wonders to our mind and how we think about life and others.
Everyone has cognitive dissonance at some point in their life. I was thinking of putting examples up, but I'll pass on that. I'm sure you can think of them yourself... if you really even care... In fact, if you read this far, I'm shocked.
You should take social psychology; especially if you want to learn a ton about yourself - why you think how you think, why you do what you do, to find your true self. There are plenty of other ways to learn about oneself, but this class has shown me so many different techniques and theories that I am starting to put everything together.
Psychology in general is just a bunch of theories bundled together to make sense of human behavior. I love it! I know of no other person who gets as excited about class as do I. Kinda scary actually...
Anyways, that is about all I wish to share. Live life to the fullest, laugh as if there's no tomorrow, and love like there's no end. Well, there is an end (sort of), but don't worry about it.
The End <-- (see, here it is.)
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Procrastinating a Paper
Procrastination. I never thought I'd get so much done while trying to put off writing this paper. I vacuumed my house, went to the store, learned a new song, actually went to the gym, and read an article. Eh, I guess that's not really a ton, but it was more than I'd planned on doing today. Go figure.
This paper is going to drive me crazy I believe... Oh, wait.... I forgot, I kinda got to crazy 3 years ago. Success Academy. Tons of homework. No free time. Yep. Let's just say I am dreading writing it.
Actually, I don't mind writing the paper. It's the research and analyzing the information that I don't care to do. You try reading 4 articles discussing the effects of meditation on neural functioning; 'tis not enjoyable. So, instead of reading all the articles that I should read, I'm just going to write this. I'll read tomorrow, then I'll write my paper, then I can relax this weekend... maybe...
Most likely I'll keep putting this paper off until I absolutely must write it. Procrastination is a required skill for college students. I'm not just saying that - it really is true. No matter what college students do, they always must procrastinate some form of homework, reading, writing, social activity, etc. If I tried to do everything I wanted or needed to do when I wanted or needed to do it, I would never sleep. I'd always be overlapping tasks. Therefore, procrastination is essential to survival in college (and life). Enough said.
Have I ever said that my kitty is the most adorable, sweet, affectionate cat I've ever had? He is, and he is attached to me, and he likes to be carried around like a baby, and I love him - he's adorable and makes me happy. And, I'm terrible at staying on one subject the whole time. I'm also pretty terrible at ending these blogs.
Haha, let's not end just yet. I'm only beginning to procrastinate writing this paper. I'm going to take an idea from Dacy and post my pet peeves. Here it goes:
1. When someone doesn't close the door. I hate open doors, literally.
2. When items are not put in their proper place.
3. Disorganization - enough said.
4. When people don't shut up even though they have nothing intellectual to say anymore.
5. When someone calls me out on my mistakes in public; I know I make them, you don't need to let the rest of the world know as well.
6. When anyone says they'll be "right back" and then take forever to get back. Or when they say they'll do something and it never gets done.
7. When people make drama out of nothing.
These all make me rather upset.
That's all I can think of right now...
Random fact: I'm scared of opening those canned biscuit things. You know, the pillsbury or grands ones that you stick in your fridge. I get very anxious when I have to make them, and almost always jump if they pop open on me. It's ridiculous, I know, yet it still makes my heart race.
So, I should stop procrastinating...
Tomorrow.
This paper is going to drive me crazy I believe... Oh, wait.... I forgot, I kinda got to crazy 3 years ago. Success Academy. Tons of homework. No free time. Yep. Let's just say I am dreading writing it.
Actually, I don't mind writing the paper. It's the research and analyzing the information that I don't care to do. You try reading 4 articles discussing the effects of meditation on neural functioning; 'tis not enjoyable. So, instead of reading all the articles that I should read, I'm just going to write this. I'll read tomorrow, then I'll write my paper, then I can relax this weekend... maybe...
Most likely I'll keep putting this paper off until I absolutely must write it. Procrastination is a required skill for college students. I'm not just saying that - it really is true. No matter what college students do, they always must procrastinate some form of homework, reading, writing, social activity, etc. If I tried to do everything I wanted or needed to do when I wanted or needed to do it, I would never sleep. I'd always be overlapping tasks. Therefore, procrastination is essential to survival in college (and life). Enough said.
Have I ever said that my kitty is the most adorable, sweet, affectionate cat I've ever had? He is, and he is attached to me, and he likes to be carried around like a baby, and I love him - he's adorable and makes me happy. And, I'm terrible at staying on one subject the whole time. I'm also pretty terrible at ending these blogs.
Haha, let's not end just yet. I'm only beginning to procrastinate writing this paper. I'm going to take an idea from Dacy and post my pet peeves. Here it goes:
1. When someone doesn't close the door. I hate open doors, literally.
2. When items are not put in their proper place.
3. Disorganization - enough said.
4. When people don't shut up even though they have nothing intellectual to say anymore.
5. When someone calls me out on my mistakes in public; I know I make them, you don't need to let the rest of the world know as well.
6. When anyone says they'll be "right back" and then take forever to get back. Or when they say they'll do something and it never gets done.
7. When people make drama out of nothing.
These all make me rather upset.
That's all I can think of right now...
Random fact: I'm scared of opening those canned biscuit things. You know, the pillsbury or grands ones that you stick in your fridge. I get very anxious when I have to make them, and almost always jump if they pop open on me. It's ridiculous, I know, yet it still makes my heart race.
So, I should stop procrastinating...
Tomorrow.
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Rambling and Whatnot
My fall break schedule: write a 3-5 page paper, start researching for my 10 page paper, read a little bit, catch up on sleep, relax, download music. In that order. Exciting, no?
So, I took two tests today. I studied for one for hours upon hours. The other, I didn't really work hard to study for it, and it definitely showed in my grade. Thank goodness one test score drops. My behavioral neuroscience class is not nearly as difficult as I had presumably thought it would. In fact, I aced my test for that class today. It was too easy...
Anyone want to write a paper for me? I really do not want to write this weekend. Not a research paper at least.
Today was good though. My class had an intense discussion in institute at 9 this morning, but I only remember a little bit about it. We were in Moses 7 in the Pearl of Great Price, and we got on the topic of faith - what it is, and the power that it has, all that jazz... Blew my mind. I wish I could record these discussions and come back to listen to them later when I'm actually awake and thinking correctly.
This guy in my class and I usually discuss these topics as we leave the building. He always has interesting insights and questions in class. I'm fascinated by the things that people wonder, and once the question is said, I start wondering the same thing. Coincidence? No... This is another thing I've learned in institute: there are not coincidences, only miracles God doesn't get credit for. I love that quote now!
I probably shouldn't write here as often and instead write more for class and whatnot. Yes, I believe I have rambled enough for one night.
So, I took two tests today. I studied for one for hours upon hours. The other, I didn't really work hard to study for it, and it definitely showed in my grade. Thank goodness one test score drops. My behavioral neuroscience class is not nearly as difficult as I had presumably thought it would. In fact, I aced my test for that class today. It was too easy...
Anyone want to write a paper for me? I really do not want to write this weekend. Not a research paper at least.
Today was good though. My class had an intense discussion in institute at 9 this morning, but I only remember a little bit about it. We were in Moses 7 in the Pearl of Great Price, and we got on the topic of faith - what it is, and the power that it has, all that jazz... Blew my mind. I wish I could record these discussions and come back to listen to them later when I'm actually awake and thinking correctly.
This guy in my class and I usually discuss these topics as we leave the building. He always has interesting insights and questions in class. I'm fascinated by the things that people wonder, and once the question is said, I start wondering the same thing. Coincidence? No... This is another thing I've learned in institute: there are not coincidences, only miracles God doesn't get credit for. I love that quote now!
I probably shouldn't write here as often and instead write more for class and whatnot. Yes, I believe I have rambled enough for one night.
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Rain and School
A realization just hit me. I have a rather boring life. Day to day, I usually go to school, maybe talk with some friends or watch tv, play piano, do tons of homework, facebook, blog, and sleep. Wake up, and repeat. Wow... Yet, I love my life. It's perfect for me right now. I would like to have more excitement sometimes, but I think tests, friends, and school in general cause me enough anxiety and stress. Why throw in new stressors on top of all of that?
Making connections with people is difficult. I don't know how I ever managed through the social life in school, especially getting put in such a new environment in high school - one where I didn't know anyone. I'm really glad I chose to do Success Academy though. I finally realize how much further ahead I am than all of my friends. I don't have to waste my time taking classes I don't want to take. Instead, I get to take classes that I love and that really interest me. If upper division classes are this great, I can't wait until grad school! Hopefully I'm not speaking too soon.
Rain is a good thing. That song is very interesting... but I'm actually talking about the rain we've been having here in St. George. I'm loving the rain and hope it continues all week long! After my class today, I walked really slowly through the rain. I didn't care if I got soaked; I was enjoying the weather far too much. This was probably not the best idea, considering I had quite a ways to walk and almost froze. Advice: don't walk in the rain unless you have a jacket on or an umbrella at least. Thankfully my truck heats up relatively quickly.
Well, that's about it in my boring life. Come back soon to waste another 2 minutes of your time!
Making connections with people is difficult. I don't know how I ever managed through the social life in school, especially getting put in such a new environment in high school - one where I didn't know anyone. I'm really glad I chose to do Success Academy though. I finally realize how much further ahead I am than all of my friends. I don't have to waste my time taking classes I don't want to take. Instead, I get to take classes that I love and that really interest me. If upper division classes are this great, I can't wait until grad school! Hopefully I'm not speaking too soon.
Rain is a good thing. That song is very interesting... but I'm actually talking about the rain we've been having here in St. George. I'm loving the rain and hope it continues all week long! After my class today, I walked really slowly through the rain. I didn't care if I got soaked; I was enjoying the weather far too much. This was probably not the best idea, considering I had quite a ways to walk and almost froze. Advice: don't walk in the rain unless you have a jacket on or an umbrella at least. Thankfully my truck heats up relatively quickly.
Well, that's about it in my boring life. Come back soon to waste another 2 minutes of your time!
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Content, Green, Hugs
I'm content. Life isn't great, but it's not really that bad either. Something I've been realizing lately is that everything doesn't have to end up perfectly. I can get through difficult situations because I know I can handle anything life throws at me.
I must say that my friends are amazing. Tonight, Nicki brought me cookies for no apparent reason, just because. I love my friends! Without friends and family, I don't know how I'd survive this life.
Life is good. I am finally getting into the groove with my classes. Some textbooks are extremely hard for me to read, but I deal. I finished my 2 papers today. Still need a second opinion on them, but I'll get that tomorrow. So, I've realized I love social interaction. I thrive on my weekends of talking and hanging out with friends. I look forward to chatting and texting and blogging. Maybe it's just that I need to restate my feelings out loud (or through typing) to actually know what I'm going through.
In case you haven't noticed, I've been writing a lot lately. I think I'm going to write a song soon. A country song, of course. About life and love and the lack of... haha. I need the lyrics, then the music. Hmmm... this might get interesting.
Anyways, did you know my favorite color is green? Well, it is. My room is also green and gorgeous. I wish I could just be outside all the time. Thankfully my curtains let in the light in the morning and afternoon. At night though, it's kinda creepy because if I have my light on, people can see through my window... I need to fix this. Don't want any peepers.
I have a lot to read tomorrow. But, at least I don't have to write any more essays until this weekend! You know that feeling you get when you accomplish something? That's what I'm feeling right now, but I really haven't even accomplished anything other than actually getting my papers written.
I still need a real hug. I've been missing physical contact with people. We've learned in my adult development and aging class that physical contact helps cognitive processing. So, I need to start touching more and getting out of my bubble. We'll see if that actually happens or not...
Life is good-ish... We'll see what happens later to see it that holds true.
Haha, I just wrote my title, and if you take out the commas, it is "content green hugs"... It reminds me of environmentalists. Let's not go into that topic tonight though (in fact, I don't think I ever write about politics on here... hmmm). Lol. Randomness!
I must say that my friends are amazing. Tonight, Nicki brought me cookies for no apparent reason, just because. I love my friends! Without friends and family, I don't know how I'd survive this life.
Life is good. I am finally getting into the groove with my classes. Some textbooks are extremely hard for me to read, but I deal. I finished my 2 papers today. Still need a second opinion on them, but I'll get that tomorrow. So, I've realized I love social interaction. I thrive on my weekends of talking and hanging out with friends. I look forward to chatting and texting and blogging. Maybe it's just that I need to restate my feelings out loud (or through typing) to actually know what I'm going through.
In case you haven't noticed, I've been writing a lot lately. I think I'm going to write a song soon. A country song, of course. About life and love and the lack of... haha. I need the lyrics, then the music. Hmmm... this might get interesting.
Anyways, did you know my favorite color is green? Well, it is. My room is also green and gorgeous. I wish I could just be outside all the time. Thankfully my curtains let in the light in the morning and afternoon. At night though, it's kinda creepy because if I have my light on, people can see through my window... I need to fix this. Don't want any peepers.
I have a lot to read tomorrow. But, at least I don't have to write any more essays until this weekend! You know that feeling you get when you accomplish something? That's what I'm feeling right now, but I really haven't even accomplished anything other than actually getting my papers written.
I still need a real hug. I've been missing physical contact with people. We've learned in my adult development and aging class that physical contact helps cognitive processing. So, I need to start touching more and getting out of my bubble. We'll see if that actually happens or not...
Life is good-ish... We'll see what happens later to see it that holds true.
Haha, I just wrote my title, and if you take out the commas, it is "content green hugs"... It reminds me of environmentalists. Let's not go into that topic tonight though (in fact, I don't think I ever write about politics on here... hmmm). Lol. Randomness!
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Trivial Stress
I should be writing or reading for my classes right now. Thank goodness I'm done with my tests this weekend! One tomorrow, then I don't have another one until next thursday! Phew... relief. So, I get to write 3 papers this weekend. One, I'm supposed to write an analysis of this paper I need to read about fMRI's. It's not coming along very well since I barely understand the paper that I'm supposed to be writing about. One of my other papers is about stress and the affects it can have on one of the physiological systems in the body. I might post them once I'm done, but I most definitely want to post my last one. I'm way excited to write my last paper. It's a ten page research paper, and I'm doing it about mid-adulthood dating. I can't wait to start writing it!
Ya, I have an exciting life, I know.
So, school is really stressing me out. I think I need a break, but it seems every time I try to take a break, I have something else I need to get done. Well, I guess that's life, eh? I think I got so stressed that it broke down my immune system. This is a good guess, since I do not feel very good and can't seem to concentrate. It's funny though, because I used to cope with stress relatively easily. I did my work to perfection, and would spend hours reading or writing for class. I can't do that anymore and I'm not really sure why. I'm ready for this semester to be over already - the pace is too fast for me right now and I just need to slow down.
I don't think anyone actually reads these so I feel safe writing this. I'm scared. I put myself completely out there recently, and I'm not sure what's going to happen now. I didn't necessarily want to get put in this position, but I am and I don't want to get hurt, although I know that's practically inevitable. That's one of my biggest fears: getting hurt by others. I'm physically pain tolerant, but when it comes to my emotions, I don't know how to handle disappointment well. Have you ever felt that you're pursuing a lost cause? I don't know if that's true or not. I don't want this to be a lost cause, but I'm pretty sure it already is one. It hurts me to know this.
I was warned though, numerous times. I should've listened, but I guess I'm just too stubborn. I like to get my way, and a lot of the time, I do whatever it takes to get what I want. Determination: I used to like being known as a determined person, but now, I don't know if that's a good trait. It's scary what goes on in my mind. Most people would be shocked to know all of the things I think about. Even those people who think they know me really don't know who I am. They may know a few things, but I've never opened up to anyone completely before. I feel as if I want to though, and I already know who I'm going to tell.
Back to the real world. Have you ever listened to "Never gonna leave this bed" by Maroon 5? If not, you should go listen to it. it's quite an amazing song and makes me feel happy. I rather quite like Misery as well. Oxymoronic, yes?
I need to get back to school soon... Bleh. I really don't want to endure 6 more hours tonight! Then I get the lovely opportunity to study for neuroscience... yay. George Strait and Chris Ledoux are amazing. Just thought I'd point that out for those of you who do not already know I think this.
Most of my paragraphs start with I... Hmm... that's interesting. I must change this next time. But for now, I really don't care. Can you tell I'm just loving life?
Ya, I have an exciting life, I know.
So, school is really stressing me out. I think I need a break, but it seems every time I try to take a break, I have something else I need to get done. Well, I guess that's life, eh? I think I got so stressed that it broke down my immune system. This is a good guess, since I do not feel very good and can't seem to concentrate. It's funny though, because I used to cope with stress relatively easily. I did my work to perfection, and would spend hours reading or writing for class. I can't do that anymore and I'm not really sure why. I'm ready for this semester to be over already - the pace is too fast for me right now and I just need to slow down.
I don't think anyone actually reads these so I feel safe writing this. I'm scared. I put myself completely out there recently, and I'm not sure what's going to happen now. I didn't necessarily want to get put in this position, but I am and I don't want to get hurt, although I know that's practically inevitable. That's one of my biggest fears: getting hurt by others. I'm physically pain tolerant, but when it comes to my emotions, I don't know how to handle disappointment well. Have you ever felt that you're pursuing a lost cause? I don't know if that's true or not. I don't want this to be a lost cause, but I'm pretty sure it already is one. It hurts me to know this.
I was warned though, numerous times. I should've listened, but I guess I'm just too stubborn. I like to get my way, and a lot of the time, I do whatever it takes to get what I want. Determination: I used to like being known as a determined person, but now, I don't know if that's a good trait. It's scary what goes on in my mind. Most people would be shocked to know all of the things I think about. Even those people who think they know me really don't know who I am. They may know a few things, but I've never opened up to anyone completely before. I feel as if I want to though, and I already know who I'm going to tell.
Back to the real world. Have you ever listened to "Never gonna leave this bed" by Maroon 5? If not, you should go listen to it. it's quite an amazing song and makes me feel happy. I rather quite like Misery as well. Oxymoronic, yes?
I need to get back to school soon... Bleh. I really don't want to endure 6 more hours tonight! Then I get the lovely opportunity to study for neuroscience... yay. George Strait and Chris Ledoux are amazing. Just thought I'd point that out for those of you who do not already know I think this.
Most of my paragraphs start with I... Hmm... that's interesting. I must change this next time. But for now, I really don't care. Can you tell I'm just loving life?
Sunday, September 12, 2010
Music & Reading
I have just decided that I love Maroon 5! They have some pretty great music. Just thought I'd let you know that I actually like some other music besides just country. Haha, I love country though... Last night, the Western Underground concert was pretty great, but I liked the opening act, Eric Dodge, even better. He had this song called Woman's World and I was laughing so hard at the lyrics. I love it :D
Ya, music has basically been my escape from school this semester. At lunch, I come home and play the piano (I think my mom wishes I'd learn some new songs...). Oh well. I enjoy playing, and I want to perfect some of these songs. Preferrably the ones I like. I really love Tocatta in D Minor, and Canon in D Minor (I think that's what it's called...). Anyways, it's the wedding march song, and it's lots of fun to play.
I think I read 100 pages of textbook today, not exaggerating. I had a test on friday, one on saturday, I have one tomorrow, one on tuesday, and another one this upcoming friday! I wish teachers would spread out their tests better. It's sort of my fault though... I haven't been keeping up with my reading in all of my classes. I only like reading for 2 of them, so the other 3 take backseats. One of the 3 I have to read and the other 2 I just get through by reading the summaries, bolded words, and captions. For some reason, grades seem less and less important the older I become.
Oh! The other night, me, Nicki, and Melissa just went out driving for not apparent reason. Somehow or another, we decided to find these guys Melissa was texting, and we found them at Walmart. It was an adventure. They didn't even say hi, but we went and sat in the back of my truck in the parking lot, just chilling. That was a pretty great night.
So, I think my printer is posessed... for some reason it keeps making weird noises at random moments. The weirdest thing is that the power's turned off! I just unplugged it because I don't want to wake up in the middle of the night simply because my printer is acting stupid.
That is all for tonight.
Ya, music has basically been my escape from school this semester. At lunch, I come home and play the piano (I think my mom wishes I'd learn some new songs...). Oh well. I enjoy playing, and I want to perfect some of these songs. Preferrably the ones I like. I really love Tocatta in D Minor, and Canon in D Minor (I think that's what it's called...). Anyways, it's the wedding march song, and it's lots of fun to play.
I think I read 100 pages of textbook today, not exaggerating. I had a test on friday, one on saturday, I have one tomorrow, one on tuesday, and another one this upcoming friday! I wish teachers would spread out their tests better. It's sort of my fault though... I haven't been keeping up with my reading in all of my classes. I only like reading for 2 of them, so the other 3 take backseats. One of the 3 I have to read and the other 2 I just get through by reading the summaries, bolded words, and captions. For some reason, grades seem less and less important the older I become.
Oh! The other night, me, Nicki, and Melissa just went out driving for not apparent reason. Somehow or another, we decided to find these guys Melissa was texting, and we found them at Walmart. It was an adventure. They didn't even say hi, but we went and sat in the back of my truck in the parking lot, just chilling. That was a pretty great night.
So, I think my printer is posessed... for some reason it keeps making weird noises at random moments. The weirdest thing is that the power's turned off! I just unplugged it because I don't want to wake up in the middle of the night simply because my printer is acting stupid.
That is all for tonight.
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Decisions of the Future
Funny experience just barely. So, I went to go type www.blogspot.com in the bar at the top of the page, but I accidentally type www.blotspot.com, and there's actually a website called that! I have no idea what's on that website, nor did I stay to look at it, but I thought it was interesting.
To my real point of writing this post. Well, actually, I have no point at the moment. I'm just tired of homework and school. I get to write a research paper! Most people wouldn't be excited for this, but I just picked my topic, and I think it will be very interesting. Ten pages about widowhood and dating. I'm stoked!
Now, change of subject... I wish things were easy. That it wasn't so difficult to make these decisions. I want everything in my life to turn out right, but I don't know how I can make that happen. I'm... not sure if I'm even on the right path. But, I must be because I'm here right now. I don't know nor do I want to think about it too much at the moment. I have more pressing matters weighing on my mind.
I really miss how my life was. I had such great friends (I still do, but half of them are gone), I was always excited for school, there was not reason for me to worry about the future because I knew that I didn't need to for a few more years. Well, the years have come and gone. In all honesty, I'm terrified. I have never been comfortable with the unknown, and now, that's all I seem to be dealing with. It comes up in my dreams, I think about the future all the time, and as hard as I try to live in the present, the past and future keep coming to mind. One of my favorite quotes, "Remember the past, live in the present, & fear not the future for it never exists and never shall. There is only now." I wish I could actually believe that. I wish that all my worries would just go away, or that I could find a better way to deal with them. I wish I wasn't so insecure...
Why do emotions ruin my senses? I think I know everything I want, but then my emotions toy with my realistic thinking. I don't know how much longer I can stand it. But, I know some way or another, I'll get through everything. I just hope it's sooner than later.
Eh, I'm sorry if this made absolutely no sense to you. Make assumptions if you wish, but I'm not going into more detail. Vaguity... no, this is not a word, but it describes my writing of this night. That is all.
To my real point of writing this post. Well, actually, I have no point at the moment. I'm just tired of homework and school. I get to write a research paper! Most people wouldn't be excited for this, but I just picked my topic, and I think it will be very interesting. Ten pages about widowhood and dating. I'm stoked!
Now, change of subject... I wish things were easy. That it wasn't so difficult to make these decisions. I want everything in my life to turn out right, but I don't know how I can make that happen. I'm... not sure if I'm even on the right path. But, I must be because I'm here right now. I don't know nor do I want to think about it too much at the moment. I have more pressing matters weighing on my mind.
I really miss how my life was. I had such great friends (I still do, but half of them are gone), I was always excited for school, there was not reason for me to worry about the future because I knew that I didn't need to for a few more years. Well, the years have come and gone. In all honesty, I'm terrified. I have never been comfortable with the unknown, and now, that's all I seem to be dealing with. It comes up in my dreams, I think about the future all the time, and as hard as I try to live in the present, the past and future keep coming to mind. One of my favorite quotes, "Remember the past, live in the present, & fear not the future for it never exists and never shall. There is only now." I wish I could actually believe that. I wish that all my worries would just go away, or that I could find a better way to deal with them. I wish I wasn't so insecure...
Why do emotions ruin my senses? I think I know everything I want, but then my emotions toy with my realistic thinking. I don't know how much longer I can stand it. But, I know some way or another, I'll get through everything. I just hope it's sooner than later.
Eh, I'm sorry if this made absolutely no sense to you. Make assumptions if you wish, but I'm not going into more detail. Vaguity... no, this is not a word, but it describes my writing of this night. That is all.
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
I Just Need to Rant
So much for my happy moods. Have you ever felt like life just kicks you when you're down? Well, that's basically been my day today. I was excited to start the day. Ready for my statistics and development classes. I was going to make it a good day, but everything just seemed to be going wrong. I couldn't concentrate on homework because my house was too noisy. I tried to relax a little by playing piano, and I guess that was good. I just have way too many thoughts on my mind, and I don't have any way to release them because if I did, people would probably question my sanity.
Oh, I also didn't get the car I've been trying to get for the past week. I went over, and a guy came in with cash and got it instead. So, that's disappointing.
One of my friends came to me with a difficult problem, and I tried to help comfort her, so we went to the temple. That was nice, peaceful, and helped me clear my head a little bit. It was funny; we somehow got on the topic of couples and marriage and whatnot (I guess it's because we were at the temple or something), and were sitting out front when this guy leads his blindfolded girlfriend over to the front and proposes to her! I felt way awkward, so we left and chose another place to sit. It was interesting.
Before I left for the temple, I had this crazy insane headache. It's back again. I couldn't read my textbooks, and was going to take a nap. That didn't work. I read instead, and got an even worse headache. This is what hours of class all day can do to you. So, I have a bunch to read tomorrow. Thank goodness labor day weekend is soon. I really need to catch up with everything (already...).
Why does life have to be so stressful and complicated?
I just realized this today, but I'm making decisions right now that are going to affect the rest of my life. It really took a toll on me and I just thought about it for a minute. What do I really want out of life? I can't postpone these decisions much longer, so when should I make them? Now? Tomorrow? I don't have all the details, so how can I make the best decision for me? Gah! Can to you tell I'm completely overwhelemed.
Hopefully tomorrow brings a better day. In my mood right now though, I highly doubt that tomorrow will be any good. Maybe I'm lacking sleep. I know I'm lacking socialization that I've been depending on for a long time. I really need to find something that makes me happy. I'm usually pretty good at this (or at least at faking it), but recently, not so much. I'm tired, don't feel good, and can't seem to open up. What next?
Goodness, I need some sleep. Very badly. Maybe it'll cure some of the stress in my mind. Blogger, thank you for letting me rant. It was a good chat.
Oh, I also didn't get the car I've been trying to get for the past week. I went over, and a guy came in with cash and got it instead. So, that's disappointing.
One of my friends came to me with a difficult problem, and I tried to help comfort her, so we went to the temple. That was nice, peaceful, and helped me clear my head a little bit. It was funny; we somehow got on the topic of couples and marriage and whatnot (I guess it's because we were at the temple or something), and were sitting out front when this guy leads his blindfolded girlfriend over to the front and proposes to her! I felt way awkward, so we left and chose another place to sit. It was interesting.
Before I left for the temple, I had this crazy insane headache. It's back again. I couldn't read my textbooks, and was going to take a nap. That didn't work. I read instead, and got an even worse headache. This is what hours of class all day can do to you. So, I have a bunch to read tomorrow. Thank goodness labor day weekend is soon. I really need to catch up with everything (already...).
Why does life have to be so stressful and complicated?
I just realized this today, but I'm making decisions right now that are going to affect the rest of my life. It really took a toll on me and I just thought about it for a minute. What do I really want out of life? I can't postpone these decisions much longer, so when should I make them? Now? Tomorrow? I don't have all the details, so how can I make the best decision for me? Gah! Can to you tell I'm completely overwhelemed.
Hopefully tomorrow brings a better day. In my mood right now though, I highly doubt that tomorrow will be any good. Maybe I'm lacking sleep. I know I'm lacking socialization that I've been depending on for a long time. I really need to find something that makes me happy. I'm usually pretty good at this (or at least at faking it), but recently, not so much. I'm tired, don't feel good, and can't seem to open up. What next?
Goodness, I need some sleep. Very badly. Maybe it'll cure some of the stress in my mind. Blogger, thank you for letting me rant. It was a good chat.
Monday, August 30, 2010
Two posts in a row... that's pretty incredible for me. But, I need to talk, well, figuratively. Moreso, I just need to put thoughts down.
So, here's my dilemma. I love psychology, but I'm seriously thinking about changing my major to english. I have no idea why I'm thinking this, but I am. Maybe my mind thinks there are more jobs for english majors than for psychology majors (which is probably likely). But, I'm not going to make a decision just yet. I have all the prerequisites to switch majors, but I'm not sure if that's what I really want.
More problems. I've been car shopping recently, and I found a car that I really like. It's a gold saturn, 2 door... I don't really know the rest of the details, but I like how it drives, and my brother says it's in good condition, so I'll take his word for it. Here's where my problem comes in. Another person also wants the car and went in before I did to the dealership. I'm really hoping their financing doesn't come through. That's terrible to say, but I've been looking for weeks, and I actually, really like this car and really want it. Not to mention it looks great. It's sporty-ish looking and matches me quite well.
School. Let's see... I don't think I will ever be able to post without somehow including school. But, let's post on a positive note! School's very interesting (good interesting). I've already learned a ton, and we're barely starting the second week! Today in my behavioral neuroscience class we looked at a real human brain! It was exciting. It's amazing what our brains do...
Institute is amazing. I absolutely love it. I have it first class on mondays and wednesdays. Hopefully having it at the first of the week will get me off to the right start every week. I can't wait to start hearing about doctrinal insights, stories, and truly trying to improve myself through learning.
So, I think I'm starting to go back to myself again, which is good. I greatly dislike being a pain to deal with, so that me is (hopefully) gone for the time being. For now at least, I'll keep things light and happy on here.
So, here's my dilemma. I love psychology, but I'm seriously thinking about changing my major to english. I have no idea why I'm thinking this, but I am. Maybe my mind thinks there are more jobs for english majors than for psychology majors (which is probably likely). But, I'm not going to make a decision just yet. I have all the prerequisites to switch majors, but I'm not sure if that's what I really want.
More problems. I've been car shopping recently, and I found a car that I really like. It's a gold saturn, 2 door... I don't really know the rest of the details, but I like how it drives, and my brother says it's in good condition, so I'll take his word for it. Here's where my problem comes in. Another person also wants the car and went in before I did to the dealership. I'm really hoping their financing doesn't come through. That's terrible to say, but I've been looking for weeks, and I actually, really like this car and really want it. Not to mention it looks great. It's sporty-ish looking and matches me quite well.
School. Let's see... I don't think I will ever be able to post without somehow including school. But, let's post on a positive note! School's very interesting (good interesting). I've already learned a ton, and we're barely starting the second week! Today in my behavioral neuroscience class we looked at a real human brain! It was exciting. It's amazing what our brains do...
Institute is amazing. I absolutely love it. I have it first class on mondays and wednesdays. Hopefully having it at the first of the week will get me off to the right start every week. I can't wait to start hearing about doctrinal insights, stories, and truly trying to improve myself through learning.
So, I think I'm starting to go back to myself again, which is good. I greatly dislike being a pain to deal with, so that me is (hopefully) gone for the time being. For now at least, I'll keep things light and happy on here.
Saturday, August 28, 2010
Useful Boring Knowledge
Car shopping is a pain. I really need to find one that I want soon. I'm hoping that this one guy doesn't buy a little saturn I want, but he put a down payment on it, so he most likely will. If not though, then it's mine! Muahahahaha!
I'm in a much better mood today. It has been quite tiresome for the most part, but I haven't had to go to class, and I barely had to study. Tomorrow though, that's a different story. New ward, here I come! I'm very excited to be going to the singles' ward, but I'm terrified too. I know all the girls and people in my ward so well; it will be quite a transition to switch. But, I'm looking forward to it, nonetheless.
School is getting better. I think I'm finally starting to figure out which classes I actually need to study for. Behavioral neuroscience is going to be a living hell, not exagerrating. It is probably the worst class to take for a person who does not memorize terms very well. Statistical methods isn't going to be as bad as I thought it would. I don't know why I'd struggle with the math course. I guess it's because everyone I talked to said it was so difficult. I hope to prove them wrong.
Social psych is my Favorite! I really am so excited for this class I have already read a few chapters and we only needed to read the first one so far. Haha, maybe I shouldn't focus on it too much, but I will most definitely be doing something in this field. I am almost positive about that.
My other two classes are only one night a week, so I'm not too worried about them. Adult development and aging will be pretty depressing, but stress management will be oh so helpful. We're actually going to learn different methods for relaxation and how to do them right! I'm so excited! I'll need to learn it for this semester, especially for memorizing all the parts of the brain and nervous system... wow. I'm overwhelmed with everything. This is why I didn't pursue a biology major.
Life is good though. I'm loving my institute class. THe foam dance last night was epically amazing! I loved it!!! I didn't realize that it was the wet soapy foam, so I wasn't quite dressed how I wish I would have to get all wet. Jeans and tennis shoes don't really do that great in water. But it was still pretty awesome!
I'm starting to make new friends in my classes. Hopefully I can make some good friends that will last through the next few years of college. I need a good study group too because I'm finding some of the topics very difficult to comprehend on my own.
I know that everyone just loves hearing about my school life. It's so interesting, no? Lol, honestly, I am quite a boring person. I don't even know why I keep this blog, but I am actually starting to write a lot more, so I guess that's good.
I'm hoping college gives me more of a social experience than high school did. Since I basically had no social life in high school, I don't think this is too much to ask for. If I hang out once a month I'll have more of a social life than I did in high school. Either way, I'm here to learn, and I don't think I will ever take this many hard classes all together again. My advice? Take 2 or 3 hard courses and 2 or 3 easy courses. Stay balanced, it's much easier.
I'm in a much better mood today. It has been quite tiresome for the most part, but I haven't had to go to class, and I barely had to study. Tomorrow though, that's a different story. New ward, here I come! I'm very excited to be going to the singles' ward, but I'm terrified too. I know all the girls and people in my ward so well; it will be quite a transition to switch. But, I'm looking forward to it, nonetheless.
School is getting better. I think I'm finally starting to figure out which classes I actually need to study for. Behavioral neuroscience is going to be a living hell, not exagerrating. It is probably the worst class to take for a person who does not memorize terms very well. Statistical methods isn't going to be as bad as I thought it would. I don't know why I'd struggle with the math course. I guess it's because everyone I talked to said it was so difficult. I hope to prove them wrong.
Social psych is my Favorite! I really am so excited for this class I have already read a few chapters and we only needed to read the first one so far. Haha, maybe I shouldn't focus on it too much, but I will most definitely be doing something in this field. I am almost positive about that.
My other two classes are only one night a week, so I'm not too worried about them. Adult development and aging will be pretty depressing, but stress management will be oh so helpful. We're actually going to learn different methods for relaxation and how to do them right! I'm so excited! I'll need to learn it for this semester, especially for memorizing all the parts of the brain and nervous system... wow. I'm overwhelmed with everything. This is why I didn't pursue a biology major.
Life is good though. I'm loving my institute class. THe foam dance last night was epically amazing! I loved it!!! I didn't realize that it was the wet soapy foam, so I wasn't quite dressed how I wish I would have to get all wet. Jeans and tennis shoes don't really do that great in water. But it was still pretty awesome!
I'm starting to make new friends in my classes. Hopefully I can make some good friends that will last through the next few years of college. I need a good study group too because I'm finding some of the topics very difficult to comprehend on my own.
I know that everyone just loves hearing about my school life. It's so interesting, no? Lol, honestly, I am quite a boring person. I don't even know why I keep this blog, but I am actually starting to write a lot more, so I guess that's good.
I'm hoping college gives me more of a social experience than high school did. Since I basically had no social life in high school, I don't think this is too much to ask for. If I hang out once a month I'll have more of a social life than I did in high school. Either way, I'm here to learn, and I don't think I will ever take this many hard classes all together again. My advice? Take 2 or 3 hard courses and 2 or 3 easy courses. Stay balanced, it's much easier.
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
College Life (In Reality)
I've been to college for the past 2 years, but i never knew how much reading was required in some classes. Just to let you know what I'm talking about, I took 5 upper division psychology classes. When i first signed up for them, I thought, "I've been doing this for quite a while... it should be a piece of cake." Was I ever wrong. So far, I've probably read at least 100 pages between the different books I have and it's only the 3rd day back! Most teachers give out the syllabus, tell you the course requirements, but don't assign too much at the very beginning. I guess the further you go, the more they expect and the less slack time you have. I really am going to be spending 30 hours on homework each week. Usually, I could get off with not reading one of my textbooks or only taking a few notes... Not anymore. And I'm here to compete. I want to get the top grades, I want the satisfaction of knowing that I gave it my best. I'm just worried that I won't have time for anything else (as if I did before).
One thing I've noticed about college though is that it's helped me figure out what I really want out of life. Yes, I would love a rewarding career in psychology someday, but first, I want to have a family. I'll continue to go to school, continue to learn, continue with my life's path that I've created. There just might be a few bumps and turns along the way. It scared me at first that I might veer away from my goals, but now, I realize that I have my entire lifetime to complete them. And I have a long time to live, if I don't die tragically in some way or another (keep my fingers crossed).
I'm overwhelmed by the loads of information that are crashing around me. The hippocampus does this... the olfactory system is related to psycholgy in this way... There are so many things that i have to memorize, which is a big deal for me. I'm not so great at memorizing, and if I can, it takes me a long time. Usually at least double that of normal people. I learn, I can tell you about different theories and who created them, but I don't memorize easily. It's been quite a struggle actually not to be able to with so much schooling that I'm planning on doing. I need to work on that. Maybe this semester will help a little bit.
For anyone who has left for college, good luck. I sure hope you're not taking as difficult a schedule as me. I don't know how I'm going to find all the time to do everything I need to. I wish sleep wasn't necessary, or else I'd have plenty of time, but it is, so I don't. Now, I just need to find a good part time job that I can balance with my reading, homework, and schedule. Ugh... that should be exciting.
One thing I've noticed about college though is that it's helped me figure out what I really want out of life. Yes, I would love a rewarding career in psychology someday, but first, I want to have a family. I'll continue to go to school, continue to learn, continue with my life's path that I've created. There just might be a few bumps and turns along the way. It scared me at first that I might veer away from my goals, but now, I realize that I have my entire lifetime to complete them. And I have a long time to live, if I don't die tragically in some way or another (keep my fingers crossed).
I'm overwhelmed by the loads of information that are crashing around me. The hippocampus does this... the olfactory system is related to psycholgy in this way... There are so many things that i have to memorize, which is a big deal for me. I'm not so great at memorizing, and if I can, it takes me a long time. Usually at least double that of normal people. I learn, I can tell you about different theories and who created them, but I don't memorize easily. It's been quite a struggle actually not to be able to with so much schooling that I'm planning on doing. I need to work on that. Maybe this semester will help a little bit.
For anyone who has left for college, good luck. I sure hope you're not taking as difficult a schedule as me. I don't know how I'm going to find all the time to do everything I need to. I wish sleep wasn't necessary, or else I'd have plenty of time, but it is, so I don't. Now, I just need to find a good part time job that I can balance with my reading, homework, and schedule. Ugh... that should be exciting.
Monday, August 23, 2010
Life Stresses and Disappointments
Life is stressful. Most people know this... I guess I just got the memo. I thought being independent (to an extent) and getting my own life would help me with dealing with the stresses of life. It definitely has. I've had lots of stressful times, and I know that nothing will ever compare to some of those. But now, I'm just stressed about life in general. I need to find a job, I need to start making money, I need to get a car, I need to go to school, I need to read my textbooks, I need to do well. Why can't I just do what I want to... I want to be happy. I don't want to be stressed out. Is that really too much to ask?
Why do I keep having these weird moods where I'm so down and depressing to talk to. I'm not me. I am, but I'm not. Make sense? Is this all just a part of growing up? I thought I'd be happy to be back in school. To be busy. To live my life. But, I'm not. I thought keeping close friends around all the time would help me. I have amazing friends and family and relatives. I don't know why I'm not happy. I don't have any reason to be disappointed with my life. Happiness is part choice, part circumstance. My circumstances are good, so maybe I just need to choose to be happy. I think I'll try that tomorrow. That should solve everything, hopefully.
Why do I keep having these weird moods where I'm so down and depressing to talk to. I'm not me. I am, but I'm not. Make sense? Is this all just a part of growing up? I thought I'd be happy to be back in school. To be busy. To live my life. But, I'm not. I thought keeping close friends around all the time would help me. I have amazing friends and family and relatives. I don't know why I'm not happy. I don't have any reason to be disappointed with my life. Happiness is part choice, part circumstance. My circumstances are good, so maybe I just need to choose to be happy. I think I'll try that tomorrow. That should solve everything, hopefully.
Sunday, August 8, 2010
My Boggled Thoughts
I have come to the conclusion: I hate zucchini. Today, my mom wanted me to shred all of the giant zucchini that we’ve picked, and I remember why I did not enjoy doing it last year. It has something in it that sticks to hands. I have green coating all over my fingers now, and it feels like super glue. No bueno.
I believe I have found the most amazing and encouraging song. It’s called One Day You Will by Lady Antebellum. I’ve listened to it over and over, and I must admit, it is amazing! You should go look it up if you want. The lyrics are so uplifting, and the music is beautiful. I love it at least, and you should too.
Let’s see… I forgot today was stake conference, so I got ready for church (I must admit, I looked cute too), and then found out that I didn’t even need to get ready for the day. This was quite disappointing news for me. I was really looking forward to learning something new today.
Oh! I straightened my hair! This is a huge deal for me because it means that I am really considering changing something about myself. Caitlyn wants me to cut bangs, but I'm not so sure about that. I’ve noticed that I’ve been doing quite a lot of changing recently. My room, my hair, my schedule. Now, it’s time to change me. I’ve been contemplating this, and I think I’m ready to change.
Obviously the weather has the same idea as me. It has been rainy, stormy, and wonderful. I love the rain. The sound of it in the middle of the night, hearing the thunder rumble in the background, and smelling the sweetness of the rain. There is no better feeling than sitting in bed late at night enjoying a thunderstorm.
So, I think I’m going to start writing more. I miss writing, and I’m starting to get weak with my writing abilities. I used to be able to write pages about nothing whatsoever and I can’t do that anymore. I must relearn that before school starts again.
Oh yes, school. I’ve been contemplating what I think about going back. I’m not sure if I’m excited, terrified, nervous, upset. I do know that I need something to occupy my time, but I’m not sure that school is what I want to occupy it. I am excited for a few classes, one being social psychology, but behavioral neuroscience sounds like torture. I’ll deal I guess.
I think I’ve run out of ideas to write about. Next post though, I want to put a few poems on here. Now, I just have to write them.
I believe I have found the most amazing and encouraging song. It’s called One Day You Will by Lady Antebellum. I’ve listened to it over and over, and I must admit, it is amazing! You should go look it up if you want. The lyrics are so uplifting, and the music is beautiful. I love it at least, and you should too.
Let’s see… I forgot today was stake conference, so I got ready for church (I must admit, I looked cute too), and then found out that I didn’t even need to get ready for the day. This was quite disappointing news for me. I was really looking forward to learning something new today.
Oh! I straightened my hair! This is a huge deal for me because it means that I am really considering changing something about myself. Caitlyn wants me to cut bangs, but I'm not so sure about that. I’ve noticed that I’ve been doing quite a lot of changing recently. My room, my hair, my schedule. Now, it’s time to change me. I’ve been contemplating this, and I think I’m ready to change.
Obviously the weather has the same idea as me. It has been rainy, stormy, and wonderful. I love the rain. The sound of it in the middle of the night, hearing the thunder rumble in the background, and smelling the sweetness of the rain. There is no better feeling than sitting in bed late at night enjoying a thunderstorm.
So, I think I’m going to start writing more. I miss writing, and I’m starting to get weak with my writing abilities. I used to be able to write pages about nothing whatsoever and I can’t do that anymore. I must relearn that before school starts again.
Oh yes, school. I’ve been contemplating what I think about going back. I’m not sure if I’m excited, terrified, nervous, upset. I do know that I need something to occupy my time, but I’m not sure that school is what I want to occupy it. I am excited for a few classes, one being social psychology, but behavioral neuroscience sounds like torture. I’ll deal I guess.
I think I’ve run out of ideas to write about. Next post though, I want to put a few poems on here. Now, I just have to write them.
Saturday, August 7, 2010
Forces of Nature
I hate the weather right now... it's far too windy and I can feel the autumn breeze starting to fill the air. I thought I would be thrilled to see summer end, but I'm not. I'm ready to be busy again, but I don't want to be at the same time. Does that make sense? Well, it does to me. I'm tired of sitting at home with nothing to accompany me except my thoughts. I don't like helping around the house at the moment, and I need to go back to school, even though I don't necessarily want to go to all of my classes.
I am not looking forward to some of the classes I am taking. Yes, I can't wait to study social psychology and stress management, but statistical methods in psychology does not sound like the most entertaining class. Who knows, I might love it, but I don't want to. Not right now.
Have you ever thought about the connections that we have to different people in our lives? Well, I have. I have given this subject great thought, and I have a theory. People all have different connections: mental, psychological, physical, emotional connections. We can only really see the physical and feel the emotional connections in our lives. But, I have wondered what causes these connections. Is there some sort of 5th dimmension that we have not discovered where thoughts dominate the universe? I think so. I have no idea how this could be proven or even tested, but I think it might be quite an interesting study if someone actually took it seriously.
The brain power that it would take to supply these connections could be extremely small, or very large. I've always wanted to believe in things like supernatural power where the brain is the only instrument used to move the physical world. Does this make any sense at all? Oh well. I need to get these thoughts down before I forget.
I wonder if there's anyone else who thinks this is as interesting as I do. Maybe I'll find out in college. Two years until grad school! Woohoo! For now though, I probably ought to focus on actually getting the degree.
I am not looking forward to some of the classes I am taking. Yes, I can't wait to study social psychology and stress management, but statistical methods in psychology does not sound like the most entertaining class. Who knows, I might love it, but I don't want to. Not right now.
Have you ever thought about the connections that we have to different people in our lives? Well, I have. I have given this subject great thought, and I have a theory. People all have different connections: mental, psychological, physical, emotional connections. We can only really see the physical and feel the emotional connections in our lives. But, I have wondered what causes these connections. Is there some sort of 5th dimmension that we have not discovered where thoughts dominate the universe? I think so. I have no idea how this could be proven or even tested, but I think it might be quite an interesting study if someone actually took it seriously.
The brain power that it would take to supply these connections could be extremely small, or very large. I've always wanted to believe in things like supernatural power where the brain is the only instrument used to move the physical world. Does this make any sense at all? Oh well. I need to get these thoughts down before I forget.
I wonder if there's anyone else who thinks this is as interesting as I do. Maybe I'll find out in college. Two years until grad school! Woohoo! For now though, I probably ought to focus on actually getting the degree.
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