Dreams & Music

I had the weirdest dream last night. For some reason, I was in a pool that was just deep enough that I couldn't touch the bottom and I was playing water basketball. Strange, I know. I knew some people there. A few friends and this one lady from a class at school. Every time I got the ball, I would start sinking and I couldn't move as fast as usual. I dunno... I think my mind's a pretty messed up place. Maybe that's why I'm not so afraid at looking into other people's minds. I'm pretty sure not many are as strange as mine.

Artists I'm in love with at the moment: Love and Theft, Keith Urban (obviously), Nickelback, Daughtry, Maroon 5, David Cook, Bryan Adams, Lady Antebellum, and Lonestar. I'm just as surprised as you are that over half of these aren't country. I did not realize that there was so much good music out there!

I've decided to create a homework playlist too. It has new-pop-classical piano songs on it. I'm hoping this will help me concentrate better. If not, then at least I'll get a new taste of music, right?

Reading has become one of my least favorite things to do. I used to stay home on friday and saturday nights to read a book. Now, I don't even want to pick one up. Textbooks have ruined this for me. I don't want to spend my time reading them or any other book for that matter. Sometimes I don't mind, but that's only if it's for two classes... the other 3, I dislike a lot. Two of those classes are interesting, but the textbook is badly written. The other one, I love the teacher, lectures aren't too bad, but I'm not really interested in the physical components of psychology, so it's not enjoyable for me to study for that class.

I went and looked up what my dream meant earlier. Supposedly water symbolizes some thought in my unconscious wanting to come out... the struggling symbolizes that I have some sort of inner conflict that I'm making a bigger deal of than I should... the basketball symbolizes teamwork and that I may need to ask for help with current problems... and friends symbolize that I think relationships are important in learning about myself and that I need to lean on those friends more. I'm still skeptical about dream interpretations, but I found this interesting, nonetheless.

Why is it that I'm so interested in learning about how my mind works? Is it because I want to learn how other minds work as well? Or is it some sort of self-discovery process? I dunno... I guess I'll just go with it and not question anything for the time being.

Content, Green, Hugs

I'm content. Life isn't great, but it's not really that bad either. Something I've been realizing lately is that everything doesn't have to end up perfectly. I can get through difficult situations because I know I can handle anything life throws at me.

I must say that my friends are amazing. Tonight, Nicki brought me cookies for no apparent reason, just because. I love my friends! Without friends and family, I don't know how I'd survive this life.

Life is good. I am finally getting into the groove with my classes. Some textbooks are extremely hard for me to read, but I deal. I finished my 2 papers today. Still need a second opinion on them, but I'll get that tomorrow. So, I've realized I love social interaction. I thrive on my weekends of talking and hanging out with friends. I look forward to chatting and texting and blogging. Maybe it's just that I need to restate my feelings out loud (or through typing) to actually know what I'm going through.

In case you haven't noticed, I've been writing a lot lately. I think I'm going to write a song soon. A country song, of course. About life and love and the lack of... haha. I need the lyrics, then the music. Hmmm... this might get interesting.

Anyways, did you know my favorite color is green? Well, it is. My room is also green and gorgeous. I wish I could just be outside all the time. Thankfully my curtains let in the light in the morning and afternoon. At night though, it's kinda creepy because if I have my light on, people can see through my window... I need to fix this. Don't want any peepers.

I have a lot to read tomorrow. But, at least I don't have to write any more essays until this weekend! You know that feeling you get when you accomplish something? That's what I'm feeling right now, but I really haven't even accomplished anything other than actually getting my papers written.

I still need a real hug. I've been missing physical contact with people. We've learned in my adult development and aging class that physical contact helps cognitive processing. So, I need to start touching more and getting out of my bubble. We'll see if that actually happens or not...

Life is good-ish... We'll see what happens later to see it that holds true.

Haha, I just wrote my title, and if you take out the commas, it is "content green hugs"... It reminds me of environmentalists. Let's not go into that topic tonight though (in fact, I don't think I ever write about politics on here... hmmm). Lol. Randomness!

Music & Reading

I have just decided that I love Maroon 5! They have some pretty great music. Just thought I'd let you know that I actually like some other music besides just country. Haha, I love country though... Last night, the Western Underground concert was pretty great, but I liked the opening act, Eric Dodge, even better. He had this song called Woman's World and I was laughing so hard at the lyrics. I love it :D

Ya, music has basically been my escape from school this semester. At lunch, I come home and play the piano (I think my mom wishes I'd learn some new songs...). Oh well. I enjoy playing, and I want to perfect some of these songs. Preferrably the ones I like. I really love Tocatta in D Minor, and Canon in D Minor (I think that's what it's called...). Anyways, it's the wedding march song, and it's lots of fun to play.

I think I read 100 pages of textbook today, not exaggerating. I had a test on friday, one on saturday, I have one tomorrow, one on tuesday, and another one this upcoming friday! I wish teachers would spread out their tests better. It's sort of my fault though... I haven't been keeping up with my reading in all of my classes. I only like reading for 2 of them, so the other 3 take backseats. One of the 3 I have to read and the other 2 I just get through by reading the summaries, bolded words, and captions. For some reason, grades seem less and less important the older I become.

Oh! The other night, me, Nicki, and Melissa just went out driving for not apparent reason. Somehow or another, we decided to find these guys Melissa was texting, and we found them at Walmart. It was an adventure. They didn't even say hi, but we went and sat in the back of my truck in the parking lot, just chilling. That was a pretty great night.

So, I think my printer is posessed... for some reason it keeps making weird noises at random moments. The weirdest thing is that the power's turned off! I just unplugged it because I don't want to wake up in the middle of the night simply because my printer is acting stupid.

That is all for tonight.

College Life (In Reality)

I've been to college for the past 2 years, but i never knew how much reading was required in some classes. Just to let you know what I'm talking about, I took 5 upper division psychology classes. When i first signed up for them, I thought, "I've been doing this for quite a while... it should be a piece of cake." Was I ever wrong. So far, I've probably read at least 100 pages between the different books I have and it's only the 3rd day back! Most teachers give out the syllabus, tell you the course requirements, but don't assign too much at the very beginning. I guess the further you go, the more they expect and the less slack time you have. I really am going to be spending 30 hours on homework each week. Usually, I could get off with not reading one of my textbooks or only taking a few notes... Not anymore. And I'm here to compete. I want to get the top grades, I want the satisfaction of knowing that I gave it my best. I'm just worried that I won't have time for anything else (as if I did before).

One thing I've noticed about college though is that it's helped me figure out what I really want out of life. Yes, I would love a rewarding career in psychology someday, but first, I want to have a family. I'll continue to go to school, continue to learn, continue with my life's path that I've created. There just might be a few bumps and turns along the way. It scared me at first that I might veer away from my goals, but now, I realize that I have my entire lifetime to complete them. And I have a long time to live, if I don't die tragically in some way or another (keep my fingers crossed).

I'm overwhelmed by the loads of information that are crashing around me. The hippocampus does this... the olfactory system is related to psycholgy in this way... There are so many things that i have to memorize, which is a big deal for me. I'm not so great at memorizing, and if I can, it takes me a long time. Usually at least double that of normal people. I learn, I can tell you about different theories and who created them, but I don't memorize easily. It's been quite a struggle actually not to be able to with so much schooling that I'm planning on doing. I need to work on that. Maybe this semester will help a little bit.

For anyone who has left for college, good luck. I sure hope you're not taking as difficult a schedule as me. I don't know how I'm going to find all the time to do everything I need to. I wish sleep wasn't necessary, or else I'd have plenty of time, but it is, so I don't. Now, I just need to find a good part time job that I can balance with my reading, homework, and schedule. Ugh... that should be exciting.