Jaron and the Long Road to Love, Psychology, Marathon

Jaron and the Long Road to Love. So far, it's not that long of a road. I love them already! The lead singer has an amazing voice, and I think I have a new favorite break out artist. He'll definitely get bigger as time goes on, I hope. The song "I hope you hit traffic" is really good.

Tonight I went to the psychology program opening social. I had a good time, met some new people, and hopefully will get more involved with the psychology club after this. Just so you know, my psychology professors are the best. They're all very intelligent, and most of them are really good teachers.

Dixie's homecoming centennial ball is next week... I'm deciding whether I want to go or not. I'd rather go with someone if I went, but I doubt that will happen.

I have just decided. I'm not really an optimist. I think I'm far more a realist. One of my teachers put it this way: the optimist sees the glass half full, the pessimist sees the glass half empty, and the realist sees a glass with water in it.

Keith Urban always makes me feel better. "I'll be over you and on with my life. So take your records, take your freedom. Take your memory I don't need em. Take your space and all your reasons... In fact I'll feel a whole lot better... You'll think of me."

I'm loving having music back on my computer :) It makes me feel so much better knowing I can choose what I want to listen to. I need music. It's always been something that's a type of healing therapy to me. Piano, listening to certain genres when I'm in certain moods... I think everyone does that though.

Wow... I must be tired... And I get to wake up at 4 tomorrow morning! ....Yay? At least its for a good cause. I love volunteering at the marathon. Every year, I always meet some awesome person that needs help or just stops to talk for a moment. Some people travel so far to come to the marathon too. I can't imagine travelling that far to go running.

It's crazy. Life's insane. And I'm feeling good about everything now. Finally.

Lightning the Mood... or not.

Do you ever get in those moods where you're just pissed at life for no apparent reason? Well, I'm in that mood right now... And it's completely out of character for me. I don't want to talk to anyone, I don't want to think about anything, and I just want to be alone without a care in the world. Too bad life never turns out how we want it to...

But sometimes, it's just our attitude that needs the changing. I just got off here for a minute, then back on. I could hear the rain, the thunder, and everything was so peaceful. I felt safe and warm in my cozy little bed. It's amazing what a few minutes can do to your mood. Just taking a second to step back and look at yourself. I have trouble doing that sometimes, but when I do, I usually learn a lot about myself.

Is it a lie to not tell the complete truth? I never have quite been able to figure that out. I don't like to lie, for the most part (though I'm quite talented at it - far too much practice that I'm not really proud of). But recently, I have been trying to be more honest and open, though I don't know if it's safe to share so many secrets and insights with other people. I'm tired of being lonely and isolated. I need that interaction with others. I don't mind being alone most of the time, but I'm ready to get back to school and socialize. Not just socialize, but actually meet new people. I need to get my mind busy on other things: homework and friends would be nice.

Normally, I like to be optimistic about life. I like to think that there's happiness around every corner; that things will work out for the best. I'm not so sure about that now. Realism is starting to set in. When you make stupid mistakes, you get stupid consequences. Learning this firsthand is difficult... but enlightening at the same time. I don't think that bad is everywhere. But, I don't know if good will be lurking around every turn in the road of life. As I think about this, I start to realize it's all attitude. When we have a bad attitude, bad things seem even worse than usual. But with a positive attitude, bad things are less likely to be so terrible. Just my thoughts.

Anyways, I think this will be the end. I'm still not in a great mood, and I don't know why... Maybe sleep will help.