A Change of Pace...

Today has been quite the day. My little cousin, Conlan, came over to swim and I found out he’s terrified of water. At first he wouldn’t even get off the steps, then he finally decided to get on the “boat.” Caitlyn and I were sharks and alligators, and he chased us and splashed us to turn us “nice.” It was a pretty fun game. I haven’t had that much fun in the pool for a couple of weeks.

But that’s not the reason I wanted to write this post. Last night, I went for a walk around the temple grounds - it was amazing. I haven’t felt that much peace and comfort in a long time, and I knew that, somehow, everything would work out. My life has been in a mess the past few months, even years. I didn't really know where I was going, what I was doing, and who I was. I lost myself. But last night, I felt an immense peace settle over me. I haven't felt that way in a long time, and it was such a great feeling. I have a lot of things I need to change, I know that. I need to find myself again. I need to be truly happy. I thought I was happy, but I forgot what true happiness felt like. I re-experienced that last night. For anyone who is reading this, the temple is the most amazing place in the world. There is no other way to gain happiness without God in your life.

Change of subject. I just found out that I cannot text and talk at the same time. It's impossible. For all of those people who can accomplish this great task, I applaud you. I notice that I can't listen to music and read at the same time either. I'm sure you were just dying to hear all of this about me. It must be some sort of mental thing. I can't multitask when I am using the same part of my brain for two different tasks; it's almost impossible!

This is a very random post for me. I usually know what I want to talk about, but I have so many things I want to say. Recently, I had a fortune cookie that said, "A long lost friend will soon return in your life," or something like that. My fortune came true! My friend, Sarah, is coming down here for college for the next couple years. I just found it funny (ironic maybe?) that a fortune cookie and my real life correspong (is that the right word?) with each other.

Random assortment of ideas, I know... But, read it you want, comment if you will, and keep yourself entertained, even if it is by reading my little blog post. Those are my words of advice.

Memories...

As I look at my room, it is completely bare, except my bed, my computer, and a few scattered things on the floor. All the wall decorations are gone. The personality that has been so much a part of my life for the past 8 years... it's gone. Soon enough, the carpet will be replaced with a hard laminate flooring. My homemade desk will be replaced with a store-bought one. The blue ocean walls will soon become a tranquil green. And the ceiling will have the look of clouds. It will be the outdoors, but inside.

I'm actually really excited to have some change in my life, even if it is just redoing my room.
I was thinking about all of the changes happening in my house when I started thinking about all the changes that have been happening to me. I went through high school, made and lost friends, went to college... my life had its ups and its downs. Now, I'm graduated, I'm planning my future, and I need to be ready for whatever life throws at my doorstep.

For some odd reason, I started to think about the song, "Memory," from Cats. The memories from school started to flood over me. I remember one time sitting in my room with Tiffany, Jane, and Ashley as sophomores, discussing the most important topics of the day. I remember that someone opened my dresser drawers when I left the room for a minute, moved my books around, and started messing with little things they knew would make me mad. These were little pet peeves that now don't bother me.... as much.

Another memory just came to mind, and it was the first day of Success Academy. I was terrified. I hardly knew anyone in my class.... I'm not the best at making friends either. But, one girl in the class was sitting alone, and I sat next to her. Next thing I know, we became great friends, and from there, I became good friends with a lot of the other students in my class. We sure had a lot of fun in Success too... messing with the afternoon class, slacking off on homework until the last minute (well, I never did that, but I ended up helping those who did), our trips to Denny's, getting kicked out of class... I miss those times; the times that we were all together.

Oh how the memories keep flooding in...
I've had so many great times the past few years. I remember talking on the phone with good friends, a sleepover here and there, and listening to music while doing homework assignment after homework assignment... I've been stressed out, I've laughed, I've cried, I've lived through my teenage years and yet, I have a feeling that this is just the beginning...

I thought I knew everything to know about life. The truth is, I don't really know anything. Now, I know I have so much more to learn. I have so many more memories to create. A song just came on that I absolute love and it ... kinda fits... It has the word memory in it anyways. Keith Urban's "Making Memories of Us." Good song, then again, all of his songs are excellent.

So many changes are happening. I knew they were coming, and I guess I'm excited, but at the same time, I can't help but wonder what will happen. Even though I'm staying at home, I plan on having a great college experience. Memories are good and so is change. "Remember the past, live in the present, and fear not the future, for it doesn't exist and never shall... there is only now." One of my favorite quotes.

Anyways, I'm starting to ramble and this is becoming a really long post, so I think this will be the end.