Summer Boredom

The heat is throbbing as I take one step outside. Fire seems to engulf my entire persona. I don't know whether I've walked outside or into an oven. Welcome to summer in St. George. Most people quite enjoy the summer days; they'll swim, go to the lake, take a vacation, hang out with friends, and sleep... But, not me... Honestly, I think summer is quite easily my least favorite season. I feel as if I can't breathe properly when I'm outside, which makes me want to stay inside, which makes me feel as if I have nothing to do, which makes me feel like I need to do something, which makes me feel as if I can't do anything, which makes me feel like a failure... At least, that's how today feels. I am usually not a pessimist, but the heat may very well turn me into one.
Don't get me wrong, I love life, just.... well, not today. I kind of wish school would start so I would have something to preoccupy my mind and time. I get bored too easily and am ready for a change of pace. I thought I could keep myself busy with household duties, but I still get sidetracked, and half the time I don't want to do whatever I'm supposed to be doing. I don't want to be bored, but I want something different to preoccupy my time.
My mind is everywhere and no where all at the same time. I feel as if I don't know which way is up, or which direction I need to go. So many thoughts are engulfing my mind, and the summer boredom is doing nothing to help me figure out what I need to figure out. The problem is, I have been keeping my body busy, but I have nothing to occupy my thoughts. I keep trying to listen to music or read, but the thoughts keep reapproaching, and I don't know whether to shoo them away or to embrace them.
Life is too complicated. That's all I have to say. I sometimes wish that there were no problems in life, and that if there were problems, that other people would take care of them. But I know that would never help me grow and would never help me learn. So for right now, I need to learn to deal with these problems as best as possible. Fall, please come as soon as possible... Although you will without a doubt bring new problems, I just need a change.